大丈夫って言わない夜

静かな夜の中で ひとり君を思い出す 部屋の隅でうずくまる 声も出せずに凍えてた 気づかれないようにずっと 強がって笑ってた 本当の気持ちは 誰にも言えないまま 時計の音だけが響く部屋で 止まった時間が心を締めつける 大丈夫って繰り返しても 心はついてこないよ 夜の闇に紛れた涙が ひとつまたこぼれてく 本当は気づいてほしかった 強くなんてなれないよ こんな弱さも全部 誰かに知ってほしいのに 平気なふりをしてた 君の前でもずっと 傷つくのが怖くて 本音を隠してた 少しずつひび割れてく 心の奥のほう 見えない傷が 静かに広がってく 閉ざした気持ちがほどけないまま また夜に飲まれていく 大丈夫って繰り返すほど 孤独が深くなるよ 強くなれと言われるたびに 何も言えなくなる 本当はそばにいてほしい ただそれだけなのに 言葉にできないまま 夜がまた更けていく 誰にも見せない涙が 心を締めつける このまま消えてしまえたらと 思う夜もあるけど それでも朝は来るから また息をしてしまう 弱いままでもいいと いつか言えるかな 大丈夫って言わなくてもいい 心は嘘をつかない 夜の中で揺れてるこの気持ち そのままでいいんだよ 本当はひとりじゃないと 信じてみたいから 壊れそうなこの夜を 少しずつ越えていく

In the quiet of the night Alone, I think back on you Curled up in the corner of my room Frozen still, unable to make a sound So no one would ever notice I kept smiling, acting strong But what I truly feel inside I could never say to anyone In a room where only the clock keeps echoing Time stands still and tightens around my heart No matter how many times I say I'm okay My heart just won't catch up to the words A tear lost in the dark of night Spills over, one and then another The truth is, I wanted you to notice I can't be strong, not really Even all of this weakness in me And yet I wish someone would come to know I pretended I was fine Even in front of you, all this time So afraid of getting hurt I hid away the truth in me Little by little it starts to crack Deep down in the heart of me A wound no one can see Quietly keeps spreading wide My sealed-off feelings still won't come undone And so I'm swallowed by the night again The more I keep on saying I'm okay The deeper the loneliness grows Each time they tell me just be strong I lose every word I have The truth is, I want you here beside me Though that's all I'm asking for I still can't turn it into words And the night grows late once more A tear I show to no one Tightens around my heart If only I could vanish just like this There are nights I even wish for that And yet the morning always comes So I find myself still breathing That it's alright to stay this weak Will I someday learn to say I don't have to say that I'm okay The heart never tells a lie This feeling swaying through the night It's alright to leave it just as it is The truth is, I want to try and believe That I'm not alone, and so This night that feels like it could break Little by little, I'll make it through